My name is Jennifer, and I just finished reading your book, Even Now. I have never written to an author, but I am feeling very led to share with you what your story has meant to me today.
I have been a believer all my life, but spent many years away from God. About nine years ago, I came back to Him and have been steadily maturing my faith in Him since. My story is very long and goes back many years, so I will spare you all the details, but over the past 10 months, my life has been turned upside down. God has been revealing some very difficult things to me, and while I thought that I was getting healing from all of it, I have realized over the past few weeks, that I have just been getting angrier and angrier with God at the way things have been turning out.
I was so mad at Him just last night, that I screamed at Him that I hate Him. I know that breaks His heart, because it surely broke mine. I have felt that I have been calling out to Him in desperation of the past few months and that He is not listening. I haven't felt so distant from Him, as I do now, in the past 9 years.
This past week I have had very conflicted emotions about my faith. I have never felt so isolated from the world and from God. I started reading Even Now last Thursday and was through chapter 13, when I picked it up this afternoon. I finished it this afternoon and then read your letter at the end. Your book and your letter has completely changed my thoughts. I realize that I have been so angry with God, that I would not allow Him to fill me with His peace, even though that is what I want from Him more than anything. I want to know that no matter how hard life gets on the outside that I still have His peace on the inside.
I would like to thank you for writing this book, but I know that it is God that I need to be thanking for your writing it and for Him placing the book in my hands exactly when I needed it. My mother bought me the book Ever After two Christmases ago, not realizing it was the second in the the series. I wanted to read Even Now first, and ran across it in a Half Price Books a few months ago. It has been on my shelf ever since. Isn't God's timing so perfect. If I would have read the book two years ago, or even two month ago, it would not have meant to me what it meant to me today. It is exactly what I needed to get my walk back on track. It is exactly what I needed to show me that God is there if I would kindly step out of His way and accept His plan in His timing.
You have blessed my life.
Thank you, Jennifer D. Plano, TX