Oh where to start.... I guess with the beginning right?! So I think I have finally found healing after reading Shades Of Blue this weekend..I myself had an abortion years ago and have never forgot that. The guilt that pours through you is unbearable.. I have wondered who and what that baby may have been and have often wished I could go back in time and do what I have always known was right. I think I cried through this entire book and by the end I felt like I had some answers and could finally start to heal. I have been to church and have asked Jesus into my heart but it never felt right and I think I now know why...I have always felt like God has forgiven me but I never forgave myself!
So let me get to the good part..... I have never read one of your books and have no idea why I chose to grab Shades of Blue... I saw it and picked it up and felt I had to have it. I didn't even know what it was about..( God must have known I had to have it) I started reading it Friday night and finished it Saturday morning. Later that day I met a girl who had just discovered the day before that she was once again pregnant... My eyes instantly filled with tears. She had said she wasn't sure if she was going to keep the baby. I started to sob and asked her if we could talk.....
Low and behold she agreed to have a conversation with me, so I was honest with her. I told her what I had been through in the past and then I told her about a book I had just finished reading. I wept and told her to please reconsider her choice. To make a long story short by the end of the conversation she herself was sobbing and thanked me for talking to her. She said she had goose bumps and that she would reconsider her decision.
I think this was all suppose to happen! God put that book in my hand so I could heal but I also think I am suppose to help people. I know He has a plan for me and I can't wait to see whats in store. I finally feel like I can live again!
I just wanted to thank you so much for what you have done for me through a book... You have changed my life in many ways through one book. Who knew that was possible?! I am eager to live now and to live for God!
Well know I think I am hooked, I went to a book store Saturday night and purchased my second book by you... Like Dandelion Dust and I must say I couldn't put that one down either, I finished it last night. I am SO glad I also grabbed Unlocked so I won't be without one of your books today. It is -15 here today in NH so I will be inside reading again today.
Once again thank you with all my heart and love and I will keep you posted on that girl's decision once I know myself. Please pray for her and for me. Pray that God fills me with His love and makes His plan clear to me.
Forever grateful, Jessie
P.S. Will you ever be in NH? I would love to have a signed copy of Shades Of Blue. The book that has changed my life!
